I cant stand myself

People always said that i should talk to my friends if i had a problem, even my friends said that.. but the last thing i wanna do is infect people with my problems.. so the only way to make sure that i dont, and to keep people from talking to me was to make them hate me. Every single one hates me, Even a couple wanna hurt me, but i would rather have them hate me, than to hurt them. And I kinda need people to hate me, not in a attention getting way(Cause i cant stand it).. But i think its because i really hate my life for no reason really :/.. So if i have people hating me its like "oh thats why i hate everything and everyone, cause nobody cares for me"

Me being this twisted and messed up, makes me wanna stay away from my friends so i dont hurt them.. I would tell them but then theyd just wanna help me or be close to me again, i Do/dont want that.. So i have to be the Big Fuckin Jackass, to protect them..


Buired Alive- Otep